Budding buddies.??

They both remind me of two friends I had in school, Tanmay and Prasheel (I am mentioning their names to avoid repetition of certain words)

Though the feeling I  get, on seeing them are same !!
Why I can't I have a friend like that ? ,I mean they both share a different bonding together, which completely outlines my case.

The ones in school (T & P ) used to sit behind me, while my partner kept on changing, they both struck together....like for rest of the year. The year was 2005, I have no idea where they are ? and what they are upto..


Okay, back to present ; I have quite a few bunch of friends and they all treat me nicely... but again no one close enough. !!
Few days back we three went to a local restaurant....there i realized 'the last time I had visited one, was 1 year back.'
And that left me thinking : I didn't found a nice company ?? or was I too busy with myself that I didn't made any good friends....(visiting places alone, seems completely pointless.)
Time and again fate reminds me of my lack of communication skills, I usually feel awkward when someone (whom I know) states that he/she is my best buddy...a tinge of disappointment brushes my heart.

Someone once told told me "you have lot in you, which can make many  jealous", I  always count on this statement but don't we all require that one person ? Just one person who can take away all our fears ??

Today, my  batch mates were promoted to 2nd year, while I was busy packing bags for the drive to my home,as another hectic phase of 2 months waits for me ahead.

Here is a poem for my friends (the repeated line in the Ist para has been copied from a novel,while rest are my own.) :

If only I had known,
I was counting my last days here...
I would have laughed a little more
putting aside all of my fear.

If only I had known,
I would remember those days again and again..
I would have captured every moment in the eye,
with something written under,
expressed as "tag line".

Is it a beginning or the end?
of life I had lived in those months
helped me to sing...
despite sorrow lying in the fist.
I gathered the courage to move ahead,
by flapping my wings.

If only I had known,
I would be keeping my mum today,
I would have talked to everyone.

If only I had known...
that today was the last day together,
I would have hugged you all
before letting everything disappear forever.